Thursday, May 5, 2011

I love Cadbury Cream Eggs

That has absolutely nothing to do with this post other than I really enjoy their excessively sugary goodness.

It's been a while since I last wrote to my fan base of one but I figured it was time to update.  Since my last whine session and pity party I have went to the doctor and was put on Celexa, an antidepressant that works wonders.  I love this chemical altering drug.  I no longer feel like ripping off the heads of every child that looks at me crossly (and in this house, there are plenty!).  I'm coping with the challenges better and it's creating a more peaceful home life and that is exactly what I need and what the kids desperately needed.  When momma's a witch, the whole family is messed up.

There are still definitely issues to be resolved that I have no idea how to take care of.  To top off the family drama, we found out that the absolutely necessary repairs that need to be done on our van are way more expensive than the vehicle itself is worth.  Of course, this comes within a week of them beginning layoffs at work.  At this point, we're just hoping to be able to get away alone this summer still!  The wonderful thing about antidepressants is that this would have sent me into a spiraling doom and gloom mindset where all I do is worry and fret and freak out. Not that I'm not worried.  I'm facing layoffs while potentially taking on another car payment we already can't afford.  But least it's not affecting me to the point that I'm losing my cool with the husband and kids due to my own stress level.  Did I mention I love this drug?

School ends for the summer next week.  I am ready for a break.  I am ready for no more late night homework and cramming study sessions.  It will be nice to come home and just be home.  To have weekends that aren't filled with papers and tests.  Graduation is in December and it can't come soon enough.  There will be an 8 month break.  I don't even know what that feels like anymore!!!!  Just having Christmas break is weird, let alone several months! 

We will be kid free next weekend.  I am going to take my husband out on a date and woo him.  We haven't went out for a couple months.  I realize some couples don't go out at all.  Some couples don't have the stress that our home has so it's okay.  I'm not trying to compete with other couples anyway.  I want time with my husband and I'm happy and thankful we're able to do it every once in a while!

Well, there's my life in a snapshot.  Now....where are those cream eggs.....